Colossal Miss Understanding

All that remains is to sit and wait.
A loss so grievous I cannot stand.
Calculations gone horribly wrong.
And now I drink myself away to dust.

Girl, smile, brunette, love, daisies, laughter, green dress, years, drink, yell, pain, gone…

When will the world be right again?
June, sun, grass, picnic, together, love, flicker, flicker, flicker, reset…

And the violin hasn’t forgotten its voice.
It still sings alone in the night as always.
The song has changed, the chords are a mess.
The sound no longer reflects the joy.

Pain, for what reason?, lost, love, love, love…
If she is your life,
Then if you lose her,
Do you lose your life too?

How sad Earth has become when sympathy,
Is running late,
And you need understanding,
And you get explosions.

They drift apart; cut, next, loneliness…
Girl, alone, apartment, unsure, scared, alone, red dress, city, thinking of him…

There are supposed to be two alone…

Belong to something, hold on to something,
Live for something, love for something,
Be anything, know anything, know her…
Fake smiles, fake laughs, fake emotions; was it only real with him?

I am the wanderer, I am the watcher,
Snakes crawl amongst you,
Where have these beasts come from?
I leave for two millennium and this is what I find…

Bones, dirt, wood, tears, flesh, love manifests in them, but where was he? Where was she?

Give me the good stuff,
I don’t want to feel anything,
If I can’t feel it with her.
Same thing, he’s my heart.

Alright, but this may never be reversed.
I am sure.
I’m not…
Pain is worse though; please..do it.

Hear these things.
For her,
For him,

For me.